What a douche.

Earth day art.

It
became
apparent to
me that I haven't
written in a very long
time. I have been very busy
and incredibly tired.
But now term
is over and
I can
sleep.
It's
getting
warmer now.
Soon I can plant
my garden. And I
already started to ride
my bike around.
Today I rode
for a good
hour
and a half
with my brother.
Well at this point in
time I don't have much
of real interest to
speak about.
So now I
bid you
adou.
:/

Another quote...

When I was a kid I used to pray every night for a new bicycle.Then I realised God doesn’t work that way, so I stoleone and prayed for forgiveness.

- Emo Philips

I'm going to try and post more creative writing. Although I haven't actually tried to write anything creatively for a REALLY, REALLY long time... so I'm going to post somthing I wrote a REALLY, REALLY long time ago... when I was emo... shut up.


Time
Do you wish you could slow everything down? Watch hundreds of seconds pass without letting a minute go. Wish you could spend time thinking, about love, about hate, about life, about death, thinking about whatever you wish to think about, without quick time pushing you forward.

You may not wish these things; you may be content with your hurried existence. If you're happy and do not wish these things, rejoice for the sole reason that you are happy, because like many things happiness is hard to get and easy to lose. I envy those whoever obtain it.

If you are not happy with this rushed lifestyle, you are like me. For I wish I could stop time to examine the beauty and the innocence in this world. I wish to acquire the never ending minute in which to think and to sleep and to dream forever, with no interruptions, no responsibilities, no time no date. To float away into a place with no worries, no problems, no nothing.

This place does not exist on our human planet. If you would attempt these things you would die, because we would keep getting attacked by each second to each minute to each hour. We can never win a fight with time because it is an immortal enemy with a world of followers.

So what do we do? We go on fighting; giving every last breath we have until time defeats us. We look for as much happiness as we can possibly get. We look for love, and family, we look for beauty in our small world and attempt to rid of the ugly. Life is worth fighting for, fight for beauty, fight for innocence, fight for happiness, fight for love and attempt peace.

"..."

I have officially discovered my favorite quote and I am eager to share it with the world. This quote is in the book I am reading "The Tea Rose" by Jennifer Donnelly

""What I believe, Father," she said, handing him back his rosary," is that three pounds of meat makes a very good stew.""

And just now am I realising that too many of my posts are related to religion... I should stop this... meh.

Religion.

I personally do not believe in any kind of God or "higher power" however I would just like to post some of my commentary on religion as a whole.

I just watched Stephen Colbert speaking of scientology which one of the large theories revolving around Scientology (also not very well known) is that 75 million years ago a space leader named Xenu killed billions of his alien people by placing them around volcanoes and murdering them with a giant hydrogen bomb (if you would like more information go here). He stated that if the scientologists would like to make this more believable they could add a talking snake and a virgin who has babies. This caused me to think about the philosophy behind The Church of the Flying Spaghetti Monster, the fact that religion is so unbelievable. People invest there lives into this book that speaks of so many things that they have no idea if they are true or not. You can completely relate "God" to "Xenu" to the "Flying Spaghetti Monster", each one is just as believable as the next.

I think that religion is a beautiful idea, a truly beautiful idea. But just using the logic which evolution has thrust upon me I choose not to donate my life to these theories which have very, very little evidence behind them. I do seriously wish that there was evidence behind religion because the idea of religion is the most poetic and artistic thought that I believe has ever occurred. The main ideas behind christiantity are in a few words: peace, love, and an understanding for what life means. But that is only the idea of religion the reality of religion is much more bleak. In my opinion most religions are just a very large company scamming good people who are looking for more in there lives. Many religious folks are incrdibly judgemental of other people who are not religious. There has never been an atheist president, I'm pretty sure that every single president of the United States has been religious. Our own x-president Bush (oh how good it feels to say/type that!) truly and whole heartedly believed that God told him to be the president. I have a feeling that, that fact probably turned a lot of votes.

Even a liberal democratic president (Obama) had an incredibly long prayer at his innagur

ation, not to mention the fact that he reffered to the atheist population as "non-believers" which I was slightly offended by because I feel it implies that the atheist population of America don't

believe in anything. I don't know about the rest of the atheists of the US but I sure as

hell believe in many things and just because I don't believe in a big white man in the sky doesn't mean I should be put into a category of a "non-believer".

So in conclusion in a world completely run by the idea of a "higher power" where is the place for

us atheists?

PS if you're looking for a good atheist web site this one caught my eye. Although beware it's pretty anti-religion/God and stuff.

Emoness in a can.

This is a recent facebook conversation I had with Maura, enjoy.

Ali Xan Wilson
The girl I told you who was an emo is Chelsea Bastian and I just thought you might want to know that her status update right now is "Chelsea Mahala BastianSomeday you're going to realize.One day you will see it through my eyes.You will see the pain that you have caused me but I will be gone happy somewhere somehow."EmO.


Maura Coursey
haha.people like that make me laugh=D


Ali Xan Wilson
Yeah she's pretty entertaining.


Maura Coursey

i'm smiling on the outside ali, but on the inside i'm crying. it's raining behind my eyes. and it seems like i will never get out of this rain...i'm spiraling downward into a deep abyss of darkness, and i'm trapped='(


Ali Xan Wilson
Everyone looks on the outside thaey can't see the inside. The inside that's the real me, the inside that can't seem to stop screaming, fighting it's way out while I try to hold it inside.


Maura Coursey
i'm screaming but no one can hear me. no one can possibly understand the things that i'm going through. sometimes i just want to die, to escape from this pain


Ali Xan Wilson
Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck in a dream world. Nothing feels real I feel nothing. I only bleed to know that I'm still alive. The pain doesn't hurt if it's the only thing you've felt.


Maura Coursey

i'm lost and i'm confused, and every time i trust someone they always hurt me. i'm so alone in the world. no one really knows me, all they know is what i show them on the outside.


Ali Xan Wilson
I stare at him sitting in the front. His sleeve slips down and I see the red lines on his arm, I get chills. I wish I could have him but I know deep inside me that the only one who could ever understand me is my razor. If only it was easier. But it's not so I bleed.

(I'm proud of this one :P)


Maura Coursey
February 26 at 8:51pm
damn. thats impressive.i'm not sure i could top that even if i tried...